Studies.
Sometimes it just doesnt pays to be kind.
Okayyy.
Mid year exams is equivalent to shit.
What's the point of studying i kept asking myself.
When, i study, i fail, i dont study, i fail.
It's useless.
Pple have talents, i dont.
I'm useless.
Sometimes i just think tht ending my life would solve everything.
At the kerb of the road, i often have the urge to just run and let any vehicle hit me.
End my life.
Woohooooooo wheeeeeeeeee.
Right?
Suffer for short term rather than suffering for a long term.
Oolala.
I often have tht mindset lah.
What more can i say? Teenagers always have suicidal thoughts.
Or some may slit their wrist.
I think tht's rather painful.
Bfore you die, u still have to endure the pain and wait for all your blood to finish bleeding then u can die.
Or some may want to jump of buildings.
Uhh.. no no for me.
I wanna die with all my body parts with me. Or die with beauty.
I think the best is to die in your sleep.
Ah ha, medicine!
Hard to get ahh, these days.
Cos death is the best way to end every problem.
Then i wouldn't have to listen to my parent's 'singings' anymore.
Then i wouldn't have to study anymore.
Then i wouldn't have to............................................ whatever shit la k.
And sometimes i'm just curious about life after death.
Isst heaven or hell?
Or maybe thr isnt any heaven or hell.
Then, every month my family or friends will send me some money, some shirts, some handphone, some laptop, some mp3.
Life after death isnt so bad after all ehh?
Hahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahaha.
I'm all mentally prepared for the worst.
I don't noe wad will happen after this week.
It's the last week for me to rejoice.
School sucks everyday for me.
Nothing seems to be interesting at all.
Maybe life just sucks.
Please, anything tht can make me look forward to everyday?
Waking up every morning with my mind thinking, okay, it's gonna be another dead and boring day.
Let time past faster.
Here's a fact lah.
When you have something to look forward to everyday, when you have something to make u happy or smile, time passes very fast.
When you have nothing to look forward to everyday, when you're being a loner without anything to make u happy or smile, times passes very slowly.
The Distillers is a good band.
