Indecisive..? I guess so.
My life is seriously all messed up.
School, family, friends and whatever shit laa.
My mood is definitely not good now.
Whoever bastards or bitches tht offend me now, don't blame me for being nasty.
Ya, as if anyone is actually afraid of me.
The wimpy past of me landed me in this state.
To them, i'm just a dust, as easy to be blown away.
Knn.
I do this, you cry, you say i don't understand.
Who's the one behind all these, ask yourself.
As if you don't know.
Then i do that, you cry, bcos somebody behind is complaining.
So, tell me now, what in the fuck do you want me to do..?
I won't tolerate any longer laa.
Seriously.
Don't fucking say i never understand you.
I did.
And you still continue to say i never understand you.
Go ahead, do whatever you want.
I don't wanna be a control freak.
All this is being obvious, cos you noe what? I want you to noe.
I don't wanna be wimp to be keep it all to myself anymore.
I need somebody to talk to about you.
Who to?
Nobody would ever listen laa.
So, i talk to myself like a nutcase.
Nutcase..? Let it be then. I don't have the time to give it a damn.
It's all freedom of speech.
Scold me, hate me, badmouth me..
Cb.
I would rather concentrate on studies now than worrying for other stuffs.
Do whatever you want. I let you have the chance.
But don't you ever cry and complain to me anymore.
Go and be with whoever you want.
Cos, i'm a ****** what.
* ***** ** *** **** ** *** **** ***** ******** ****.
Ya, some words better left unwritten.
I understood you, i let you do whatever you want, but in the end, what in the hell have i got back?
Nothing but worst.
Ask yourself, you understand me bfore?
And don't fucking ask me to put myself in your shoes.
Cos i've fucking placed myself in your shoes bfore.
Ehhhh.. i have had enough laa.
So monday in school, i'll be a different person.
Not to everyone. But to one or two.
Now, it's the time to let me do what i want.
I am still deciding whether i shld do
that to you.
But, it'll definitely be my last resort. I don't wanna do it.
But i feel like, i'm being forced to.
Oh, i bet someone will be darn happy after reading this right.
Like, duh.
Ya, i let you, you and you have the so-called happiness loh.
Yea, keep smiling.
Will someone please help me?
I need somebody to talk to, whoever will lend me their ear..?
I miss all the pple whom i could talk to last time.
They've been missing in action.
Pple like, Jerome - my bro. Luther. Muhd.
All of em seem to be missing in action.
Some are busy with their own life.
So yea. Tht's it.
I bet no one understands all the above. Only, one.
This post is only meant for me.
I guess it has been my habit to vent my anger/sadness/happiness on my blog alrdy.
I'm not asking for alot, i just need someone,something to tell what i'm feeling.
The Sounds is a good band.
