Losing control.
I so need to control myself now.
My temper, attitude, tone, character, mindset and whatever fucking shit you can ever list down.
I can fucking forgive but i cant fucking forget.
So pretty please stop telling me, "aiyah, just forgive and forget loh".
No, things aren't as simple as what you think/said.
Things happen for many reasons, not just one fucking reason you faggots.
Simple simple, small issues means alot of things so don't just let it go.
When you sum up all these simple simple issues, you get a huge difference.
And open your eyes wide to see the people around you.
Everyone should try locking themself in an empty room, with 4 white-painted walls for an hour.
Within that hour, you can picture yourself in many situations.
Mmmhmm.. i tried.
And all i did was viewing back my memories.
You know, like some tape rewinding inside your mind. It happens.
And at most time of the time, you'll keep regretting what you've done.
During alot of times, i wanna be MIA.
You know those kind of feeling?
-I don't wanna be bothered.
-Just let me be alone for some time.
-It's really tiring to smile or talk now, really.
-I just wish i couldnt be seen so that i can do what i want.
-I wish i wont exsist so things won't happen.
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Gossipping.It's the cruelest thing any of your true friends/friends can do.
It's even more cruel when you find out your own friends did that on you.
Yes, i admit, i do gossip.
But after some figuration, i think, i quit.
It's like, who am i to gossip about someone.
Who am i to judge or criticise someone's attitude, character, when i myself's isn't perfect or any wonder.
I ain't god, i ain't perfect, i have no single right to judge or criticise someone.
And the day for me to judge or criticise someone won't come.
Never, ever ever ever try to be smart.
And you pple can now go, 'oh wow, whatever lah angeline'.
But well, it's ok.
Go figure.
Don't just look infront when you walk. Look back, left and right also.
I don't know why this post came out.
When it happens, it happens.
And no, nobody offended me or anything.
I'm not angry at anyone.
I offended myself and i'm angry at myself.
And this fucking post is for myself.
Crucial.
The Spill Canvas is a good band.
